Out of date
Out of time
Everybody has leaving
And I left behind
..Alone
Don’t know since when
I prefer to stop thinking
..to stop feeling
and just keep walking
..(in a ring)
without even seeing
without even knowing
..Dumb
Like a spell I keeps telling myself,
: Just bear with it,
..the tiresome
..the boresome
..the lonesome
It is just another storm
Enjoy it
..until the last blew of the wind
..until the last drip of the rain
Through and through..
Then embrace the bright emptiness
that awaits in the end
..But, for how long?
In so many times,
I thought I have reached my limit
But, “No,” You said
“There are more,
So much more ahead.”
So, of my dumbness I questioned You,
: Why?
..why You makes me like this?
..why You makes me bear it?
..is it not enough already?
And with smile that always entaced,
You embrace me,
and whisper in my ear,
: Because I love you,
..because I can’t stand you love any other more
..because I want you to love Me,
..just Me,
..and Me alone
But, I’m a fool
I keeps failing to see
..to feel
..to know
..to understand
And so I keeps running away
..from You
Pabo!
Baka!
Idiot!
You may telling me in many languages
I’ll take it
..because I am.
Bengkulen, dualima di sebelas limabelas
