Arana always feels that she is not as perfect as other people. She always felt ignored, just because she didn't meet the beauty standards of Indonesian women. She is not tall, has tan skin, has many scars on her body, wears glasses with thick lenses, and is quite stocky. Arana didn't mind at first, but everything changed when she couldn't find a place in people's hearts; it turned out that beauty privilege exists even after all she had given.
When she is next to other girls who "meet the standard," she only looks like a shadow that people don't care about. Arana always tries to accept the fact that she is not as beautiful as her friends, but it can't be denied that it really hurts her chest. She just wants to get a place and be considered there. Arana is often used as an object of comparison and ridicule. She gets strange nicknames, and what's even more disgusting is that she is only considered when they have difficulty with assignments.
In her first semester of college, she met a boy named Sky, who had a tall, well-built body with broad shoulders, thick eyebrows, and lean skin. Sky is one of the most popular guys on campus, with a cool demeanor that's hard to get. I don't know how many beautiful women he has ignored; he just acts indifferent to all women. Arana always cursed herself---how could she, who incidentally has many shortcomings, fall in love with her senior? She took a deep breath. She had never been in love or expressed her feelings to anyone. Feelings like this were very foreign to her. She can't have it because the sky must be seen as the sky.
Arana wakes up at five in the morning; she feels that she has overslept even though class starts at nine in the morning, but she needs a lot of time to get ready. After taking a shower, she will be confused looking for clothes and remain silent in front of the mirror. She repeatedly tries to convince herself that she has "enough" beauty this morning.
She was broken by her mother's screams; her mother repeatedly called her to hurry up and have breakfast together. But she refused to eat breakfast and ended up drinking a glass of milk and eating a piece of wheat toast.
   "Eat more, dear." "I'm afraid you'll get sick."
It's true that Arana always tries to go on a diet by not eating rice, skipping dinner, and doing strenuous exercise. Because of this, she is often hospitalized with stomach problems, but he doesn't feel tired.
   "Dad's child is already beautiful; don't think you're feeling insecure all the time, dear," is Dad's best word every morning to encourage her.
When she arrived at campus, she rushed to class, where she quickly sat down in an empty chair next to her best friend Carina. Carina had a sweet face, a slim body, and white skin---the typical woman that men like. For some reason, they can be good friends. Besides Carina, she felt like a shadow, but she was grateful that a beautiful woman like Carina wanted to be friends with her.
She is a typical butterfly student; she doesn't join any organizations, and she will go home quickly after class is over, not without reason, all because she feels inferior to other people. She rushed to say goodbye to Carina and immediately left the classroom. Her steps stopped in front of the classroom door. She was called by a group of popular boys.
   "Your name is Arana, right?" said the man she knew named Triton; her eyes accidentally collided with Sky, and she immediately looked away. Arana nodded in response. If her name was indeed Arana, then why did they bother to confirm the truth of her name?
