Liar

What if I forgave my self?

What if I forgave my self even though I'd done something I shouldn't have?

What if I was Liar..and cheat..and there was no excuse for what I'd done other than because it was what I wanted?

What is I was sorry..if I could go back in timeI would do anything diferently...

What if.. all the things I shouldn't did were the things that got me here...

What if I already was...

I know only that I didn't need to reach with my bare hands anymore...

 That seeing the fish beneath the surface was enough...

 That it was everything...

 My life -like all lives-.. mysterious,..irrevocable.. and sacred,

So very close, so very present, so very belonging to me.