The thirty-sixth day without you,
"I would say I'm okay,
But I'm done lying."
*****
        Where is Sojin? I already wait for her for 2 hours but she hasn't come here yet. Will she really come to see me? I try to call her, but she doesn't pick up her phone. I'm getting worry. She isn't a type of girl who come late on our meeting, or even cancel it. Or she really doesn't wanna meet me? This beach is the beach when I first confessed to her. I miss that moment, I miss how us feeling happy at that time. But it feels like many years had passed from that day.
        "Sojin, I promise you... I will take care of you again, I won't let you go anymore. I don't care about my career or anything, I just wanna stay beside you. Please come back to me... please..."
        Where is she? I let out a long sigh and walk along the beach, keep trying to call her. But a strange sound distract me. The sound is like ringtone of... wait a minute, it's the song that I dance to when I was won the competition: VIXX -- Error. This strange feeling come into my heart, even I don't know why, but I try to run to the source of the music. And from far away... all I can see is it probably come from someone that lying on the beach. Lying? Once I come closer, she doesn't looks like lying but... I drop my phone.
        "PARK SOJIN!"
        My mind and eyes become blur. It's Sojin who lying down... no, she is fainting... I don't know. Everything seems so slow in my steps to get closer to her. Her body is lying on the beach, and when I reach her, she looks so pale and skinny... not even looks like the Sojin I ever knew. Fresh blood flowing out from her nose. She's my Sojin. I hug her body and scream in frustration.
        "PARK SOJIN! NO, NO, PLEASE HOLD ON! I..."
        I keep on hugging her and try to calm myself down as I get my dropped phone and trace the log out call. The last person I called before Sojin is Taekwoon.
