Aspiration in Life

I have been trying to be completely present to my self for the past couple of days. By present I mean is completely absorb the feelings you have, no matter how negative it is, without trying to ignore it, or diverti it in to something like tv, reading, friends, etc. I just sit compeletely still, keep my breathing normally without unnecessary pause, become aware of my entire breath and saying to my self softly “ I am compeletely be with you now”. Why do I bother to do all of this stuff? It is to practice something called negative imprint within your soul. Basically what you do is to find this core negative imprint, by begin to watch your breath and calm your mind; much like you would with any other meditation. Take notice that no matter what the circumstance or whom you were with, the feeling is always the exact same one. Just feel this feeling. Feel its sensations within your body. Observe it and fully experience it.