A wound this Deep

I am lost in quiet pain,
trying to grasp what still remains.
Your absence shakes my fragile throne,
yet in my thoughts, you're not alone.

You walked away, so brave, so free,
I played it cool---pretended to be.
But love had sunk too deep inside,
and now I drown in waves I hide.

Are you happy? Do you smile?
Does your new love stay awhile?
Have you built dreams side by side?
Please say no---so I survive.

I long to scream, to curse, to break,
but anger never mends what aches.
Instead, I sit in silent space,
still longing for your voice, your face.

So long it's been, yet still I weep,
how could your warmth cut me this deep?