Sepertinya aku pernah jatuh cinta satu kali. Pada lelaki yang dulu aku anggap jelmaanku sendiri. Pada lelaki yang mampu membuatku tersenyum-senyum sendiri. Pada lelaki yang entah ku yakini memang bukan jodohku.
Aku pernah bersamanya satu kali pergi ke pameran seni. Aku suka lukisan. Dia suka sculpture art. Aku gemar berpuisi. Dia gemar menuliskan lagu. I feel it was like a dating! Only both of us. Even tho only an accident.
Dont know i felt he was sooo fragrant that night. Putting a good smell on his perfume. We laughed. We chatted and smiled a lot. Even tho deep in my heart I did always resound that he would never be mine. Never.
The night was short actually. He seemed jealous when I always talked about someone I adore. Hahaha.. Even tho it was only a joke.
That jealousy seemed ensure myself that he liked me that way. Like i did to him. I felt like he knew whats in my heart was..
I know he knew.
He knew I know.
But then. Its just stopped that way.
Never had any conclusion
To the point between us.
I hate him
For not giving me chance to love him more....
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-not to be continued
