Balance On Living

The aim is to instill in man fear of sin and faith of God (Sathya Sai Baba, 1986). An exemplary came from a religious yet joyful circle named "Keluarga Harmoni" which I have joined just for months through a friend's invitation. 

Before, I had a thought it would be another vain search of ongoing friendship. My fear is that highly I might have been given little care to sharing any burden I have been through; alas rarely is every circle aware of such need.

But by being together with "Keluarga Harmoni", I do start realizing partly that healthy relationship would only go on if and if only one did listen, understand and act courteously. 

There, do we hardly ever break any relationship unintentionally. A little understanding I have gained with the help of the Divine. "Learn, Unlearn and Relearn" process is an inevitable cycle which has to be through in our lifetime in order to gainfully and successfully welcome even-minded understanding wherever the circumstance is. Rather, balance does literally flow on our living.

Quit Seeking Perfection

Next is to quit seeking for perfection. Totally! This is mostly the hardest test everyone has to overcome as ego is basically connected to human's instinctive desire. But we must not be daunted by it. We dare gently strive for such adversity with long-lasting courage. Surely, we will obtain the balance on living. Mindfully, lovingly, and honourably.

Putting our ego aside is a leading measure to let go of our desire for having perfection. As for my instance, the greatest ego I have ever had is to simply prove anyone else that today's concept of success is not merely about earnings, riches, establishment, harmonious family, and so every worldly measure lies on; but persistence of making meaningful living for universe through act, creation and work too. Not to mention the more the insult emerged, the eagerer I wanted to rush the proof occur at all. And the result turned out to be uglier.

Almost I broke the essence of diversity's concept: understanding one another. Even did I spoil myself to the extent of being judgmental yet not listening as well. 

Further, I often bothered the closest ones I have (family and few close friends) by arguing / objecting / opposing their reasoning again. And here came the worst. I nearly burnt the bridge, threw away all the lovely and meaningful relationship the team in Sedekah Buku Indonesia community has been building together due to personal disagreement. 

My leader emphasized that one's writing should not represent his/her interest over the community's importance. I felt like being restricted, but she didn't care and remained with her mind after all. 

So I went beyond the border. I shouldn't have ever done it. And I had regretted all those mistakes I have made. Because all that does matter enormously is the spirit of helping one another and supporting somebody to present the better of him/herself.

Besides, I already have a more complicated concept in mind for so very long. It is the longing to have all kind of privilege: fortune, acceptance, well-being of family, influence, true love, and so forth. The standpoint is that people in general barely put any regard to the hardship one having been through to have it.